Today is a beautiful February day! Sunny sky's with a light breeze. I got off my butt and went for a short walk to take in fresh air. I would have loved to have walked more, but due to more health issues, I could only get in a short one. God, I really am trying to do this "life" right, but for some reason, once again you have put up a pot hole in my path. When does my break start?
I have undergone my first cataract surgery. Results are amazing. Can't wait for round 2. I know my vision will be so good by then. Back in June of 2022, after a bike ride, I somehow injured myself. Here we are in Feb. 2023 and I finally have a diagnosis. It may require another back surgery, which I am not looking forward too, but if it takes my pain away, then let's get it done. I will know positive on this in early March. Also in March is a follow-up on a sleep study and a routine colonoscopy. Something I need to stay on top of due to colon cancer on my maternal side.
I mentioned a blog past, that I was back in touch with my half brother. Unfortunately he notified all family member his wife is battling full body cancer among liver disease. Staying in touch and always sending good thoughts / prayers via CaringBridge. Her kids are amazing at keeping friends and family up to date on her wellbeing. God, watch over that family please, and only give them what they can handle... as you have done to me.
I turned 66 this year! Yazza!! My heart tells me I am not this old, but my body is telling me different and it scares me to no end. I have so much I still want to do, yet God, these bumps in the road are not making it easy. I miss my kids every day. I wish I was able to be a part of all their lives in one way or another. I wish I was able to be with my grandkids more and have one on one hugs, laughs and conversations. I want them to know me... really know me. I'm building up my vacation time again so hopefully I will be able to take a trip at the end of this year.
I ramble a lot about this and that, but this is fact: More than not I feel lonely, I have more acquaintances in my life than friends. I am an introvert, so I won't be reaching out too often to get close to many. I apologize a lot to those that are close to me for my actions. I am stubborn, yet funny and hopefully fun to be around. I love to travel, see new things, and mostly, do stuff WITH people rather than on my own. Although, I do like being on the beach alone....that is peaceful to me. Maybe that will be a plus when the time comes to inherit the Cloverdale house. Also may be the time to see if my soul mate really exists.
I suppose I will end this blog for today. I love you kids... I miss my sister. I miss my voice......
